even if you can't see me, i promise ill always be there...
you call it love when you know the other person feels the same way :)

I Must've Done Something Right

On the 27th of December, it will my my 7 month anniversary with Caleb Nicholas Allen. I must have done something right. We have gone through so much together. We went weeks without seeing each other, we went even more weeks without speaking. We decided that being friends was best and then realized that wasn't the right choice. He got back together with me even when he knew things were going to be different and hard. I must have done something right. He STILL calls me every night even if he's tired or busy. As many things that have changed he still makes sure some things NEVER do. I think about this silly boy at least 18 hours out of my day. He's always on my mind. I say some of the STUPIDEST stuff and no matter what happens to come out of my mouth that day, he'll still call me at the end of it. Things are really hard for us right now and we've gone through a lot together but I am doing everything in my power to make this crazy thing we call a relationship work...and he knows it. Even though i feel like i could do so much more for him and that he could do so much better than me, at the end of the day, my number is still the one he dials. I must have done something right. I don't know EXACTLY what i did that made going through all of this worth it, but whatever it was, I'm glad i did it :)
I ya you babe, and always will, i pinky promise <3

its not because you're cute, its not because your popular. i love you because of who you are. i think about you every second of every day. About your smile, about your laugh. i think about your eyes, when they're opened, or closed. i think about your hair, how its always in your face. I think about your hands...your rough hands playing with my hair, grasping my fingers, touching my face. I love the way look at me...just look and stare into my eyes and then tell me you love me. i love how comfortable you are just laying in my arms. we dont need to talk or be kissing. we just need each other and we're happy. i love the way you make me laugh, the stories you tell, the looks you give me. i love the way you let me sleep in your arms, rub my back and kiss my forehead. i love the way you never want me to leave but make me so i wont get in trouble. i even love you in the morning, before the shower or before your dressed. i love you just the way you are. you dont need to do anything special or always look your best. because no matter what you do or say or look like i will love you just the same, everyday forever. your mine, every part of you, the good the bad, the happy the sad. i will always be here for you, i will always care about what you have to say. you can trust and confide in me,i pinky promise. and you know that ill love you forever, ill like you for always, as long as im living, my baby you'll be <3

seeing something beautiful is not nearly as amazing as knowing somethings beauty

you're amazing

here's why

1. you hold my hand in the car

2. you kiss me when im sad

3. you kiss me when im fine

4. you love me even though i cant drive

5. even though i say stupid things

6. even though im not perfect

7. you call me every night

8. you make sure im happy even when you're not

9. you talk about me to your friends

10. you write me poetry

11. you show me that your not perfect either

12. and that your vulnerable

13. you text me from any phone you can get your hands on

14. your staying with me even though we wont see each other a lot

15. you act like yourself

16. even when yourself is obnoxious :)

17. you look me in the eyes

18. you think im pretty no matter what im wearing

19. or how my hair looks

20. you're a totally nice guy ;)

21. you dont try to change me

22. you ACTUALLY care about what i have to say

23. you dont hold anything against me

24. you dont judge me

25. you showed me you have feelings like everyone else

26. you tell me that just a kiss made your day better

27. you missed your only hour of school to spend the day with me

28. you kissed me in the rain

29. you always treat me the same

30. you love me 5 times more that any boy from before

i dont know a better way to tell you that theres no one better for me than you <3

Baby, I love you

I never want to let you go

The more I think about,

The more I want to let you know...

That everything you do,

Is super duper cute

And I can't stand I'm in trouble

I'm an addict

I'm addicted to this girl

She's got my heart tied in a knot

And my stomach in a whirl

But even worse

I can't stop calling her

She's all I want and more

I mean damn

What's not to adore

You make me happy whether you know it or not

We should be happy that's what I said from the start

I am so happy knowing you are the one

That I want for the rest of my days

For the rest of my days

Yeah, all of my days

I've been waiting my whole life

For a someone like you

To go and steal my heart

Just the way you do

It's been one hell of a year

Here waitin on you

So I've got some questions for I'm a real big fan of yours

But I'm quite the joke to you

But girl it wasn't a joke when you

Kissed me in your room and replied

"I love you too"

i think we should be together, but you need to help me out here, i cant do everything myself. your special and different, im not really done with you yet :)

i dont know why, but i did it. i made out with my friends sarah and annie do those sound like guys names to you?? no? yea thats cuz they're girls. yea thats right i made out with two girls. i dont think im gay. actually im pretty poitive im not but it was fun and im glad i at least did it once. glad no one else has my blog info lol

i want a love like jim and pam. i dont think thats too much to ask :)

i dont really know how i feel right now. last night was supposed to be fun and amazing and all it did was make me depressed. i wish that corey was never in my life. we're not together anymore and he still hurts me to the point of tears...we were only together for two months i dont understand how its possible for a person to make that much of an impact on my life. i dont want to be with him but i dont want to fight with him or have the thought that hes out there right now telling other people that im a crazy ex or the devil (which were the beautiful words thats he used last night, along with others) i just want him to not think about me anymore or if he has to then to think of what hes lost. and i dont want to think of him anymore. i wish that every amazing memory that i ever had of him would just dissapear because all it does is make me sad and make me feel like i want to cry. i really dont want to sound like a major girl but im sick of acting like it doesnt bother me that we broke up or that everytime we talk he calls me a bitch or worse. it does hurt because he used to call me to say hoe much he loved me or that he missed me. and some of you will read this and think im overreacting cuz we were only together for a couple months but its funny how close you can get to someone and they just break your heart over and over. im sick of him ruining days of my life. so please dont talk about me behing my back and dont think bad of me because it just breaks me down a little more after hearing words like that about me come out of your mouth. and i know you think your tough but id like to think that it would hurt if i said things like that about you. well im done but i just couldnt keep this in anymore and i know my friends are tired of hearing it soo thats all

keep your head up
dry all your tears
go dancing with your best friends
and forget all your fears

he was just one boy
nothing more
you'll soon forget how he made you feel
and find another you'll learn to adore

he will be sorry
he lost something great
you will happilly move on
you just wait

"oh is it love from the first time i pressed my lips against yours thinking ohh is it love"

yea i think so...i mean it has to be :)

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking *shit* again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.

sometimes, to be honest, we dont think logically. we want what we see and not what we know in out hearts. i guess when i say we i actually mean me. i am so blinded by exteriors that i forget how i am supposed to be treated. i just keep my low standards and try the guy for the moment instead of living my life and finding the guy for the lifetime. dont be stupid like me

He told me to write him a poem

To dedicate it to him

But here I am

Trying to find the right words

But my mind seems empty

My once emotional thoughts

Seems so bleak and plain

I wish I can write to him

To tell him that I love him

But do I love him?

We share everything together

He makes me my coffee the way I love it

He reads me books while I doze off

And sometimes he washes my hair for me

Even sometimes he massages my back

He gives me tissues when I cry

Hugs me when I feel down

Do I love him?

He always stood next to me

Always gave me his shoulder to lean on

Seemed to enjoy the effect he had on me

The way he teases me

The way he calls me names

The way he makes me smile when I want to cry

I love it that he's there

To help me pass my days

Lifting me up to higher expectations

Letting me be more than just an emotional poet

He urges me to write novels

He urges me to dream

Do I love him?

They ask me about him

What does he do?

But does that matter

I really don't care

For I have him not his work or status

I don't want his money only his time

He's true to me

While others weren't

He chose to be with me

While other chose to leave

He never seems to complain

While others did

Do I love him?

It seems that I do…

i didnt write this but i saw it and fell in love so i wanted it on my blog too :)

hello my love :) i hope you like my blog and don't make fun of it ;) i didn't know what else to write about so im going to just post it :)

Anatidaephobia -- the fear that somehow, somewhere, a duck is watching you

Love when your my age isn't forever. but unfortunately love still happens, lots of different loves. some end well and some end pretty badly but never the less they still happen. you'll cry and scream but it'll be ok. and there will be another boy that will help take the pain away.

my heart jumped when i held his hand, i lost my breath when he kissed me, i believed him when he promised me it was forever and cried myself to sleep when he told me goodbye.

i do not always feel beautiful. but when i think about all the people in the world that i find beautiful (ex: zooey deschannel, anjelina jolie, my friend danielle) im not really looking on the inside just their exterior. i feel like a beautiful person on the inside, somedays even on the outside :)

i am on my own, for i have been made new. please don't let me go, i desperately need you

hello world i will try and find the beauty in you every day and thank God that you are here

Happiness

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my days
You're all of my days

You're lookin' so cool you're lookin' so fly,
I can't deny that when I'm staring
You down right dead in the eye
I wanna try to be the person you want
The person you need
It's hard to conceive
That somebody like you could be with
Someone like me

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce
Uh ou ou

You're lookin so fresh
It's catching my eye
Why oh why did I not see this before
The girl I adore was right in front of me
And now I'll take a step back and look in your eye
And ask why it took so long to see
We're meant to be

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

On the good, the bad, the ugly
The smiles, the laughs, the funny,
Or all the things we put each other through
It's for you for you for you

You make me happy whether you know it or not
We should be happy that's what I said from the start
I am so happy knowing you are the one
That I want for the rest of my days
For the rest of my day

I'm happy knowing that you are mine
The grass is greener on the other side
The more I think the more I wish
That we could lay here for hours and just reminisce

Uh ou ou

i hate the way you look at her. i hate the way she makes you laugh. i want to be the one to make you laugh and smile and be happy. why isn't it me holding your hand in the hallways. why is she so much better than me? whats worse, i thought that i was all of these things. i thought you thought about me and only wanted to hold MY hand. turns out i was just another kiss. thats all ill ever be to you, isn't it

im in love with a guy that doesn't love me back. im always in love with a guy that doesn't love me back. we used to be friends and then we kissed and everything changed. i just want my friend back and i wish the kiss had never happened. then on the other hand i have a guy that actually likes me for me and texts me every day. he says the right things and makes me feel special but yet, after all that, i still can't get him out of my head. you know the one that doesn't want me for anything but a make out buddy. i must have a mental illness.

60 THINGS A GAL/LADY/WOMAN WANTS BUT WONT ASK FOR!!

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it.

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants

29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT


36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things

Corinthians 13: 4-7

Love is patient; love is kind; love is not envious or boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things

L is for the way you look at me

O is for the only one i see

V is very very, extra ordinary

E is even more than anyone that you adore

and love is all that i can give to you

love is more than just a game for two

two in love can make it take my heart but please don't break it

love was made for me and you

thoughts

there are just so many things that i think about all the time. mostly love. im not even in love. but i have been before. when i write i feel like carrie from sex and the city. i say the words outloud so that it feels like other people can hear me. but back to love. its an amazing thing. but also the worst thing that can ever happen to you. i was in love before and then had my heart broken :( but its how you handle yourself and i plan to move on. eventually