i dont really know how i feel right now. last night was supposed to be fun and amazing and all it did was make me depressed. i wish that corey was never in my life. we're not together anymore and he still hurts me to the point of tears...we were only together for two months i dont understand how its possible for a person to make that much of an impact on my life. i dont want to be with him but i dont want to fight with him or have the thought that hes out there right now telling other people that im a crazy ex or the devil (which were the beautiful words thats he used last night, along with others) i just want him to not think about me anymore or if he has to then to think of what hes lost. and i dont want to think of him anymore. i wish that every amazing memory that i ever had of him would just dissapear because all it does is make me sad and make me feel like i want to cry. i really dont want to sound like a major girl but im sick of acting like it doesnt bother me that we broke up or that everytime we talk he calls me a bitch or worse. it does hurt because he used to call me to say hoe much he loved me or that he missed me. and some of you will read this and think im overreacting cuz we were only together for a couple months but its funny how close you can get to someone and they just break your heart over and over. im sick of him ruining days of my life. so please dont talk about me behing my back and dont think bad of me because it just breaks me down a little more after hearing words like that about me come out of your mouth. and i know you think your tough but id like to think that it would hurt if i said things like that about you. well im done but i just couldnt keep this in anymore and i know my friends are tired of hearing it soo thats all