i dont know why, but i did it. i made out with my friends sarah and annie do those sound like guys names to you?? no? yea thats cuz they're girls. yea thats right i made out with two girls. i dont think im gay. actually im pretty poitive im not but it was fun and im glad i at least did it once. glad no one else has my blog info lol

i want a love like jim and pam. i dont think thats too much to ask :)

i dont really know how i feel right now. last night was supposed to be fun and amazing and all it did was make me depressed. i wish that corey was never in my life. we're not together anymore and he still hurts me to the point of tears...we were only together for two months i dont understand how its possible for a person to make that much of an impact on my life. i dont want to be with him but i dont want to fight with him or have the thought that hes out there right now telling other people that im a crazy ex or the devil (which were the beautiful words thats he used last night, along with others) i just want him to not think about me anymore or if he has to then to think of what hes lost. and i dont want to think of him anymore. i wish that every amazing memory that i ever had of him would just dissapear because all it does is make me sad and make me feel like i want to cry. i really dont want to sound like a major girl but im sick of acting like it doesnt bother me that we broke up or that everytime we talk he calls me a bitch or worse. it does hurt because he used to call me to say hoe much he loved me or that he missed me. and some of you will read this and think im overreacting cuz we were only together for a couple months but its funny how close you can get to someone and they just break your heart over and over. im sick of him ruining days of my life. so please dont talk about me behing my back and dont think bad of me because it just breaks me down a little more after hearing words like that about me come out of your mouth. and i know you think your tough but id like to think that it would hurt if i said things like that about you. well im done but i just couldnt keep this in anymore and i know my friends are tired of hearing it soo thats all

keep your head up
dry all your tears
go dancing with your best friends
and forget all your fears

he was just one boy
nothing more
you'll soon forget how he made you feel
and find another you'll learn to adore

he will be sorry
he lost something great
you will happilly move on
you just wait

"oh is it love from the first time i pressed my lips against yours thinking ohh is it love"

yea i think so...i mean it has to be :)

Lightning strikes
Inside, my chest to keep me up at night
Dream of ways
To make you understand my pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Drop his name
Push it in and twist the knife again
Watch my face
As I pretend to feel no pain

Clouds of sulfur in the air
Bombs are falling everywhere
It's heartbreak warfare
Once you want it to begin,
No one really ever wins
In heartbreak warfare.

If you want more love,
why don't you say so?
If you want more love,
why don't you say so?

Just say so...

How come the only way to know how high you get me
is to see how far I fall
God only knows how much I'd love you if you let me
but I can't break through at all.

It's a heartbreak...

I don't care if we don't sleep at all tonight
Let's just fix this whole thing now
I swear to God we're gonna get it right
If you lay your weapon down
Red wine and ambien
You're talking *shit* again, it's heartbreak warfare
Good to know it's all a game
Disappointment has a name, it's heartbreak, heartbreak.

It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.
It's heartbreak warfare.

sometimes, to be honest, we dont think logically. we want what we see and not what we know in out hearts. i guess when i say we i actually mean me. i am so blinded by exteriors that i forget how i am supposed to be treated. i just keep my low standards and try the guy for the moment instead of living my life and finding the guy for the lifetime. dont be stupid like me

He told me to write him a poem

To dedicate it to him

But here I am

Trying to find the right words

But my mind seems empty

My once emotional thoughts

Seems so bleak and plain

I wish I can write to him

To tell him that I love him

But do I love him?

We share everything together

He makes me my coffee the way I love it

He reads me books while I doze off

And sometimes he washes my hair for me

Even sometimes he massages my back

He gives me tissues when I cry

Hugs me when I feel down

Do I love him?

He always stood next to me

Always gave me his shoulder to lean on

Seemed to enjoy the effect he had on me

The way he teases me

The way he calls me names

The way he makes me smile when I want to cry

I love it that he's there

To help me pass my days

Lifting me up to higher expectations

Letting me be more than just an emotional poet

He urges me to write novels

He urges me to dream

Do I love him?

They ask me about him

What does he do?

But does that matter

I really don't care

For I have him not his work or status

I don't want his money only his time

He's true to me

While others weren't

He chose to be with me

While other chose to leave

He never seems to complain

While others did

Do I love him?

It seems that I do…

i didnt write this but i saw it and fell in love so i wanted it on my blog too :)

hello my love :) i hope you like my blog and don't make fun of it ;) i didn't know what else to write about so im going to just post it :)